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This has been an interesting exercise. I realized what a little mouse I can be at times.  When I do play games that require you to create an avatar, I never venture far from what I truly am or look like.  I don’t take it for what it is – a license to go crazy and fantasize in the extreme.  I am pretty much a reality based, down to earth type.

GENDER: I prefer male. My sexuality is hetro-flexible Ma’am.  I would submit to being feminized on occasion for the purposes of humiliation and to help destroy my male ego further or if my dominant sexual partner preferred me to appear that way for their own arousal.

Man or boy? Gentleman or grunt? Teddy bear or beastly defender? 

Yes. LoL!  A submissive I was friends with years ago  (I was seeing his Mistress wife professionally) had a tattoo on his thigh that said essentially ‘Mistress’ choice’ and had check boxes for ‘hero’,’boyfriend’,’jester’, ‘lover’,’slave’,’puppy’, etc.  She would take a marker and check whatever box and role she wanted from him that day.  Oddly enough, he now identifies as a dominant. I’m not sure how he deals with that tattoo now-a-days…  

I do identify with being treated as servant, mommy’s good boy, a pet or a pig.

SEXUALITY: The lover of a male Dom I serviced once labeled be as a stone lesbian Ma’am.  I almost always prefer to give sexual pleasure than to be permitted it, so your labels of denied, chaste, sexual servant all work for my avatar. 

As a giver of pleasure I do not differentiate in which gender I provide pleasure too and am equally aroused and satisfied sucking cock and nuzzling a set of balls as I am orally worshiping a woman or tongue fucking an ass.  That I am giving pleasure is the important part of my sexuality. I prefer being edged and denied to an outright orgasm.  That said, nothing makes me cum harder then a woman standing over me with a whip, directing my masturbation and ordering me not to cum while describing the punishments she will give me if I disobey her.

UNIFORM:  A collar definitely.  Clothing or a uniform as is appropriate for the occasion, but going back to the desire to please, whatever excites my dominant.  

For one Mistress I had a brief relationship with, I wore sealed chain bracelets on both my wrists and ankles.  They were discreet and looked like an thick ID bracelet that were popular once upon a time.  She then had to carry just two small padlocks in her purse.  She could easily and quickly put me into bondage or chain me to something to wait for her.

Shaven or not goes hand in hand with my master’s other desires for me obviously. How she dresses me or her personal preferences for her sexual partners would determine this. 

I would prefer not to be shaved bald as I don’t think it would look attractive on me.  I am fairly lightly haired as it is, so I don’t have as strong an opinion on body hair. I have been completely body shaved in the past.  The feeling was nice and a bit arousing… the growing back, not so much.  Actually, the growing back was an excellent low-key, long-term punishment!

ROLE:  A combination of roles would be ideal. What is it Midori said about switches? “I’m a greedy, opportunistic…”  So from your suggested list – a manservant, a pamperer, personal assistant, a pet, good little boy (or bad as the situation might be), worker/handyman, a part-time toilet, punching bag, and personal stress relief receptacle/torture toy. Mostly though, an it. A voiceless gimp. A tool.

FINANCIALLY:  I’ve tried this with my now wife.  When I retired and moved in with her, I sincerely offered her full control over my finances to do with as she saw fit (Bear in mind we have been together for over 13 years). She demurred. So would I surrender all my money to my female master and become completely dependent upon her for my survival? Absolutely.

Our current arrangement is that I pay all the bills so that whatever she earns as a pro domme, she can put away in savings or investments. In the first year of our living together/marriage, she has put away over $30K. I maintain whatever money I have invested as well as anything left over after paying bills for my own use.

I have a lifetime pension (split 50/50 with an ex-wife) as well as social security benefits.  I worked hard for a very long time to earn them and I prefer not to have to have a “job” ever again.  Been there, done that. That said, if master wanted even more from me would I take a job? Reluctantly, but of course.

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